Now I Begin…Again

It’s officially another new year. Everyone has been talking of resolutions and goals and feeling inspired. Meanwhile, I have been frustrated, restless, and tired. I looked at the world through endless loops of 2019 in review, and I didn’t want it. It’s unstable, hateful, and fake. A New Year’s devotional study invaded my inbox. Nunc … More Now I Begin…Again

The Renovation

I love my new house.  It’s just the right size for my family.  Not too big, not too small.  Towering trees transforming the yard into a forest.  Nature framed like a masterpiece through walls of windows and sliding glass doors.  Imported tile that, as my husband loves to point out, allows me to literally walk … More The Renovation

Holiday = Holy Day

I almost gave up celebrating holidays.   If you have been reading along on my journey, you are well aware of my souring relationship with society and the commercialization that attaches itself to almost everything we do.  Being pulled along on a tidal wave of candy hearts and over-sized stuffed animals felt like one more … More Holiday = Holy Day

The Weight of the Waiting

You can almost feel electricity in the air this time of year.  You can see the physical tension between “hurry up” and “wait” hunching everyone’s shoulders as they try to power through.  Billions of people are buzzing around, furiously preparing for something.  Another close of a business year.  Looming family gatherings.  The expectation of a … More The Weight of the Waiting

It’s Not About Me

I haven’t posted in awhile.  And it doesn’t seem to matter much.  I wanted to worry about that, but I just can’t.  My ego started to protest, claiming that it “means something” and that it must be figured out right away. Was blogging just a phase? Do I want to quit? Do I still not … More It’s Not About Me

Qualified

I didn’t want to do it.  But at the same time I did want to.  Have you ever had those moments?  When you feel called to do something, but that something is outside of your comfort zone?  In the grand scheme of things, this calling of mine is relatively small.  Writing about my walk with … More Qualified

Live on Purpose

I got my first pair of glasses when I was in grade school.  I hadn’t realized that I had been seeing everything as a blur, but I still remember the feeling of walking outside for the first time after I put them on.  It was overwhelming.  The trees had separate, individual leaves, and I could … More Live on Purpose

Taming the Chameleon

I’ve known for a long time now that I’m actually part chameleon.  It’s true.  The chameleon is my “lame animal totem”.  A lame animal totem is the humbling (yet hilarious) way Martha Beck uses to explain our worst tendencies.  Feel like doing absolutely nothing, making no decisions, and eating a whole lot of whatever?  That’s … More Taming the Chameleon