Now I Begin…Again

It’s officially another new year. Everyone has been talking of resolutions and goals and feeling inspired. Meanwhile, I have been frustrated, restless, and tired. I looked at the world through endless loops of 2019 in review, and I didn’t want it. It’s unstable, hateful, and fake. A New Year’s devotional study invaded my inbox. Nunc … More Now I Begin…Again

The Trial

I am clinging to the map of “both/and” as I travel the path to eternity filled with questions. Is God justice or mercy?  Both/and. Did He pre-determine a plan for our lives or do we get to choose our own way?  Both/and.   But I have yet to find a path on this journey that … More The Trial

Hunger

I’m staring grief in the eyes. This time, it’s not completely my battle. All I can do is silently hold her through the pain. Having no need for words creates space to watch and learn. The first thing I notice is she won’t eat. Grief steals appetites.   And yet, death has this strange way … More Hunger

Remember

Oh, my soul, Can you see the difference? Between where you were and where you are and where you’re going? You truly are a tourist; be in awe of this transformative journey. Let your mouth gape in wonder and your breath catch in your throat.   Remember when you thought there should only be peaks? … More Remember

Roadblock: Mary

As I peeked around the roadblock of authority, excited by all the knowledge and mysteries to discover about early Christianity, I caught sight of someone who caused me to hesitate.  Someone I had been carefully avoiding for years.  If I wanted to go any further, I was going to have to meet Mary. I used … More Roadblock: Mary

Roadblock: Authority

We humans really seem to despise being told what to do.  I find this ironic, as we experience and submit to authority every day.  Hierarchy is embedded in life, hardwired into God’s creation. In fact, I can’t think of a single thing I do that doesn’t involve some sort of organizational structure.  Families, churches, companies, … More Roadblock: Authority

The Coach

The coach is on the baseball field again. Some may question that, as they wonder why he’s a little late to warm-ups.   But I can assure them, my husband has mentally been there since last night. Actually, he’s been there all season, well before it even started for the rest of us. He’s late … More The Coach

Dear Younger Me

Dear Younger Me, Stop feeling so…accused. I know you are chasing Him. I’ve never questioned that. But I do have other questions you desperately need to consider. Do you know Who you are chasing? Will you recognize Him when you find Him? Will you still want Him when you realize He’s not exactly who you … More Dear Younger Me