Dear Younger Me,
Stop feeling so…accused.
I know you are chasing Him.
I’ve never questioned that.
But I do have other questions you desperately need to consider.
Do you know Who you are chasing?
Will you recognize Him when you find Him?
Will you still want Him when you realize He’s not exactly who you thought He was?
You have created a mold you expect Him to conform to.
What will happen when He breaks it?
You’re not the first one to do this, you know.
Once upon a time, in a land far away, His people created a mold.
His perfection shattered their best attempt into a thousand pieces.
You’ve always been appalled by their response.
Because you would never be so stubborn, right?
The road to crucifixion started with simple rejection of truth.
What is that mold you created based on, anyway?
Where did you get the design?
From your own thoughts and dreams?
Forget it. He surpasses them all.
Send it back. They have no idea.
I would commend you for that, if you weren’t trying to change what you found there.
You don’t get to pick and choose; it’s a package deal.
Old + New.
Justice + Mercy.
Forgiveness + Repentance.
Faith + Works.
Words + Action.
Physical + Spiritual.
Seek and you shall find.
Knock and the door shall be opened to you.
He’s not hiding; He’s right in front of you.
If you make the effort to really know Who you are looking for.
If you choose to love Him for who He really is.
He cannot be confined to humanity’s expectations.
He will not fit into your mold.
He’s waiting for you to willingly fit into Him.