Now I Begin…Again

It’s officially another new year. Everyone has been talking of resolutions and goals and feeling inspired. Meanwhile, I have been frustrated, restless, and tired. I looked at the world through endless loops of 2019 in review, and I didn’t want it. It’s unstable, hateful, and fake. A New Year’s devotional study invaded my inbox. Nunc … More Now I Begin…Again

The Trial

I am clinging to the map of “both/and” as I travel the path to eternity filled with questions. Is God justice or mercy?  Both/and. Did He pre-determine a plan for our lives or do we get to choose our own way?  Both/and.   But I have yet to find a path on this journey that … More The Trial

Hunger

I’m staring grief in the eyes. This time, it’s not completely my battle. All I can do is silently hold her through the pain. Having no need for words creates space to watch and learn. The first thing I notice is she won’t eat. Grief steals appetites.   And yet, death has this strange way … More Hunger

Remember

Oh, my soul, Can you see the difference? Between where you were and where you are and where you’re going? You truly are a tourist; be in awe of this transformative journey. Let your mouth gape in wonder and your breath catch in your throat.   Remember when you thought there should only be peaks? … More Remember

Roadblock: Mary

As I peeked around the roadblock of authority, excited by all the knowledge and mysteries to discover about early Christianity, I caught sight of someone who caused me to hesitate.  Someone I had been carefully avoiding for years.  If I wanted to go any further, I was going to have to meet Mary. I used … More Roadblock: Mary

Roadblock: Authority

We humans really seem to despise being told what to do.  I find this ironic, as we experience and submit to authority every day.  Hierarchy is embedded in life, hardwired into God’s creation. In fact, I can’t think of a single thing I do that doesn’t involve some sort of organizational structure.  Families, churches, companies, … More Roadblock: Authority

The Coach

The coach is on the baseball field again. Some may question that, as they wonder why he’s a little late to warm-ups.   But I can assure them, my husband has mentally been there since last night. Actually, he’s been there all season, well before it even started for the rest of us. He’s late … More The Coach